date: Wednesday, March 23, 2005 @ 12:14 am
title: Headaches..
I'm like living in constant confusion..
Science or arts. To appeal, or not to?
So afraid that my faith starts to waver..
I held onto what the leaders told the church,
'Settle it ownself! and there will be break thru!'
I was slightly tired and on the verge of giving up.
I chatted with friends and strummed my classic gutiar with the usual chords.
Birthday is just around the corner and God's been doing something to me. Physically, as in really physcially.. I think He gave me more brains..
Today had a sudden lighting headache, with a few minor blackouts. As though, my circuits that are connected to my sight and sound, were temporarily switched off, causing a hiccup in my nerve system by my left temple.. Terrible. I was in agony and worst of all, its during Maths lecture and all the way until I reached home..
Luckily, ZiYi accompanied me to Popular to buy the materials for the impression card that Su's been bugging me to buy. Otherwise, I might feel insecure that I might blackout and fall all flat on the icey cold floor.
Thanks ZiYi.. if u ever read this. Woo hoo!! Cute/Cool girl Roxs!!
Today, I also met the original books of the author.. Darn! I forgot her name. ZiYi reads her novels.. Maybe I know what to get her on the 9th of September. :) Cool.. wow!!
I was like going to puke and rot.. inside of me is like jumbo up. Butterflies inside of a knotted stomach, I had nothing for breakfast.. unless u include half a spoilt chinese bun and ice lemon tea. I knew.. puking was not an option. Hydrochloric acid will be burning my throat.
I held onto myself, trying my best to poise myself. Things became worse when Nadia was insight, followed by Kevin den ACS guy den the Roxy gal, oops! dunno their names. Bleah!!
Kevin was trying to talk to me, but my head was bombarded by his words. He sounded very loud and was killing me. Skull was about to burst and all the sweat was beading inside of me..
Tick-Tock-Tick-Tock..
Bus 82 was there!
And we missed it. I was like..
there goes my bus and her bus as well.. in secs.
ZiYi was like.. Rrrrr!! in a cool way..
Bus 112 came not long..
They were intenting to go to Belinda's place to chill.
Something abt the door.. spoilt or something like that. I wasn't paying attention to details. I hate it when I missed the details. And in the morning, when i was rudely waken by a call. I lost my dream and that.. really pisses me off. Dreams are very important to me, becos my destinty might be written on it. Rrrrrrrr... >.<
Home sweet home. Within 1 minute, I'm topless and empty-handed, lying on my cozy bed, under my pillows and blosters.. trying to sleep. I need to rest. Sms came and I just had to ignore them.. Terrible headache of the Year.
After a long nap, there was a slight improvement to my disease.
And I felt different. Like I become more.. werid. Werid prophet becoming more werid. I threw myself back to sleep, but was again rudely interrupted by my mobile.. It was blinking.
One shot.. I replied to all the sms and headed to my parents' bed. I need the medication oil. Rubbed and felt the burning sensation on my temples. I took another nap.. Feeling extremely energized by it. I grabbed something for high-tea. I missed breakfast, brunch and lunch..
Milk and cookies. I was by the living room. Upon finishing.. I took my guitar for strumming. Jolly well.. I couldn't and still can't believe.. I became more musically-orientated. My switching of chords became more smooth and fluent.. I understood the G-chord was held that way.. bla bla bla.. woo!! cool!!
Happily strumming and singing. I decided to worship in strings. :) A praising heart, a prayerful heart. I gave thanks to the High above.. Yeeha!!
I took up and left to fulfill the promise I made, for my atonement for my Daddy. :)
